User Profile

Heya.

Erm... I'm Yami... or Amayana... whichever you prefer really... both are japanese, Yami meaning darkness and Amayana meaning night rain.

Who am I?

Who knows.

And unattractive young woman from Norway. Like to shape and play with any sort of artistic stuff I can get my hand on. But I'm no great artist, so I hope I'll get into university this summer to study chemistry and pharmacy and other things that go boom. I like cookies and shinies, and am generally silly.

I have a problem with talking before I think it over. And can often get into conflicts about being vague because I'm able to see both sides of a conflict, and can't really see either side as good or bad.
I can be somewhat a pushover because I don't like arguing with people, altho I might not seem that way. But I'm practicing not to be.

In juniour high many of my classmates asked me why I chose science when all I did in class was drawing. I couldn't really provide them with an answer. Only that I feel there are enough great artists out in the world that tries hard to earn a living from it, if I can use my head and help the world in a scientific job, and then play with colours and ideas when I come home just as a hobby, I wouldn't mind at all.
Some people claim I have a thing for design. Don't listen to them, they're crazy. ^^

I have been told I should join mensa to find friends, which I'm currently testing out. I've also been told I have heavy symptoms of ADD and severly high intelligence. I'll tell you what. It's not as cool as it sounds. The ADD itself is ok, as long as I don't have any distractions while I'm working I'm fine, like music. But if the subject is not intersting, I loose my head way to fast. I can only concentrate on one thing at a time. They say women can think of more than one thing at a time and men can't. But while I can juggle alot of stuff in my head at once, I can only concentrate on one of them at a time. Guess I'm not a real woman. ^^
When it comes to the unusually high intelligence. It is not something I want to brag about. It is, however, something I want my friends to know about. As it affects my life and everything I do, and everything I see and interact with.
Someone once told me "high intelligence is like your sexuality. It is determined from start. If you're homosexual, there's nothing you can do about it, and you can do nothing but hope for acceptance from the world around you. For us born with high intelligence, we see the world from a different angle, our brain works in a different way, and there's nothing we can do about it."

I used to feel very alone. But I'm starting to find friends. And I have wonderful friends who accept me for who I am. Because of this I might become overwhelming and "too much" for some of my friends at some times, and for that I apologize. I just love trying to make them smile.

"Aim for the moon, even if you fail, you'll land among the stars."

My moon is;

"I'll change the world."

Someday I will. It's my dream and my guidance. I believe, that if I just live my life from day to day, eating, working, sleeping, buying. Without doing any difference, then my life is nothing but a use and waste of resources. That's why I need to change the world. To me that is the reason to live, altho I don't consider this depression, it is just how I feel, I need to be of use.

So just watch, I'll change it. ^^

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